Tengo que adaptarme a esta nueva realidad. Pero no puedo. Estoy como clavada al suelo, intentando asimilar todo lo que ha sucedido. Siento como si estuviera llena de puertas y soy incapaz de abrirlas todas y dejar que fluyan todos los sentimientos que tengo dentro, esos que están enquistándose en lo mas profundo de mí.
Te siento tan cerca y a la vez tan lejos, y me descoloca mucho esa sensación.
No estás, pero no te has ido. Y yo te llamo a todas horas, esperando a que me contestes como si nada hubiera pasado, como si todo estuviera bien.
Pero sí ha pasado. Ya no estas conmigo, te has ido y has dejado un vacío dentro de mi tan grande que el sonido del eco asustaría al más valiente. Es una soledad extraña la que siento, una que nunca había sentido y que es imposible de ignorar.
Te busco constantemente en sueños para poder abrazarte y sentirte y decirte lo mucho que te quiero y que te voy a querer siempre. Sé que lo sabes, pero es que yo necesito gritartelo a ti y gritarselo al mundo. Necesito gritarlo a todas horas dentro de mi cabeza, necesito gritarlo mientras sonrio en las fotos, para intentar reconocerme en ellas. Pero no me reconozco. Y no reconozco esta realidad a la que he de adaptarme forzosamente.
Una Realidad sin ti.
I must adapt to this new reality. But I cannot. I'm stuck to the ground, trying to assimilate everything that has happened. I feel myself like if I'm full of doors and I'm unable to open them, so I can let all the feelings that I have on the inside flow, feelings that are burning inside of me.
I feel you so close and yet so far, and I'm disappointed because of those feeling.You are not here, yet you aren't gone. And I call you all the time, waiting for you to answer me as if nothing had happened, as if everything was fine.But it has happened. You are no longer with me, you are gone and you have left an emptiness within me so great that the sound of the echo would scare the bravest. It is a strange solitude that I feel, one that I had never felt and that is impossible to ignore.I look for you constantly in dreams so that I can hold you and feel you and tell you how much I love you and that I will always love you. I know you know it, but I need to yell at you and yell at the world. I need to shout it all the time inside my head, I need to shout it while I smile in the photos, to try to recognize myself in them. But I do not recognize myself. And I do not recognize this reality to which I must adapt.
A reality without you.
I feel you so close and yet so far, and I'm disappointed because of those feeling.You are not here, yet you aren't gone. And I call you all the time, waiting for you to answer me as if nothing had happened, as if everything was fine.But it has happened. You are no longer with me, you are gone and you have left an emptiness within me so great that the sound of the echo would scare the bravest. It is a strange solitude that I feel, one that I had never felt and that is impossible to ignore.I look for you constantly in dreams so that I can hold you and feel you and tell you how much I love you and that I will always love you. I know you know it, but I need to yell at you and yell at the world. I need to shout it all the time inside my head, I need to shout it while I smile in the photos, to try to recognize myself in them. But I do not recognize myself. And I do not recognize this reality to which I must adapt.
A reality without you.
